VIOLENCE

I want to go bowling by myself.

logicalnonsense:

I could’ve had it all but I chose you instead.

There’s nothing more repulsive than your need for me to live

than your need for me to breathe

because to my own understanding, it’s better if i wasn’t here

to witness your failures carry you on through life

and it would be a mistake if i could see us another day

so take me all away

Every living piece of me you hold down with your hands

There’s nothing more repulsive than your need for me to love you

I feel so bloated. I hate being on my period specially when it’s late because they tend to be way heavier and I can’t force myself to move. I’ve been irrational with the things I’ve been saying to Jordan today and I feel bad, haha. Right now, I was just thinking of going for a jog but my lower back hurts so much that it feels safer to just lay here in bed for the rest of the night. I despise being lazy. 

Does anyonehave any remedies for cramps and bloating?

Don’t mess with me when I’m on my period. Just a tip.

This semester has ended quickly. It was hard to say goodbye to my English teacher yesterday. I couldn’t leave the room without thinking that I may not see her again. I turned in my finals paper and homework for the last time. She said that I might be able to get in her 1A class in Fall Semester which I’m pretty stoked about.

After getting this semester done, I have work literally killing my back already. I don’t mind it because I know it’s only physical. At least, I don’t have anyone yelling at me or anything. My boss wants me to cover night shifts which is for now impossible. I don’t have a reliable transportation. My bike? Give me two more weeks or less. As you can see on the previous post, I only need two more things and I’m set. Putting it together will take a day or two. That’s the most I’m excited about. Bike. Bike. Bike. I can’t wait to just ride at night again and not depend on anyone for rides anymore. 

Right now, my heels and back are killing me. I’ve been on the computer for a few hours just looking at bike parts. My eyes are getting heavier and my stomach growling like a lion in a cage. I just really wanna lay down and watch The Twilight Zone with Jordan. I don’t mind the creepy dreams just as long as I get to wake up to his stupid face, haha. 

Bianchi 2006 Pista

Okami White Studded Saddle

Sugino 75 Crank set

Nitto Crystal Fellow seat post

Bianchi 2006 pista

Okami White Studded Saddle

Sugino 75 crank set

MKS Sylvan Pedals

Nitto B123 NJS Drops

VP Double Strap Cream

MKS Chrome Steel Toe Clips

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I just need: 

Sugino Zen 47T Chain Ring

Chains 

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I cannot wait to ride this thing.

I got a job interview tomorrow. I hope I get it. I really hope I do.

Filming was such a success today. I stressed out too much about the props and worried that I won’t get any of them. Then, Dollar Tree popped in mind! With a few dollars, I got everything I needed.

TREAR YO SELF: I got myself Zen Wok again. It’s becoming one of my favorite places in Tower to get cheap quality food. I got their spicy deep fried Eggplant sautéed in vegetable sauce with white rice. Then (listen closely), there’s a new DONUT SHOP that opened right by it. You know what that means?! Boba. Right by me. Any time! They also claim they have vegan donuts. So, I grabbed some today.

Ubie, Tauwnie, Carl and Armando helped me with filming today. They all did great job acting and tossing some ideas. This made me consider maybe doing some short films this summer for fun.
In less than two hours, we got all the footage we need. Whew. The sun was perfect today!

Chilling at Carl’s house followed shortly after that. Kicked it there for a bit and listened to some nasty raps by Lil Debbie, Araab Muzik, Clams Casino and uhhhh 3HUNNA guy.
A couple of our friends asked us to hang out at Riverpark. So, yeah, we drove there and it was to see Howie, Lance and his other friends there. They pulled out a guitar and started serenading everyone even the birthday girl sitting right across us.

Some bike talks. Here. There.
Overall, today wasnt too bad. Prolific.