VIOLENCE

i want to do more. i want to be in a band already and do something different this time. something heavy, girly, aggressive, expressive, screaming, loud…the exact opposite of what i do now. 

i want to be with this guy but it seems that it’s just gonna be unrequited, once again. i want to be able to show him that i’m good enough. 

i want to go to europe already and be with my cousins and my grandma. go to paleo and other music fests. 

i feel like i’m not living my life to the fullest. yes, i know that there should be patience but also i feel like right now..i’m wasting time on not acting on anything. it’s progressive. a steady progress and that’s why i feel like it’s not going anywhere.

anticipation.

anxiety.

worrying.

Your heart beats

up

my heart

like your heart beats

up 

and down.

It’s decided; I am going to start being a Vegan on 1st of November. We’ll see how this one goes. It’s only been a few months since I converted into being a vegetarian but I’ve been really passionate about animals and being green that I feel like I really need to step it up with my lifestyle and be fully aware of the harm meat or dairy products are doing to our environment and animals in general. 

The meat industry is a very dishonest business. Most of the factory farms where you get your meat from have been very reluctant of showing what goes on in their farm. They’ve been hiding it from the public. Why would you hide something..you know, unless there is something you’re embarrassed about? This should be open to the public because it’s everyone’s business. Your food matters and yes, where you get your food and how you get it matter as well. 

 I really wish people would open their eyes to this matter. Most of the time, I only hear that people’s argument about eating meat is that “it tastes good” but don’t you think that that’s a very shallow argument? It lacks compassion. It lacks love. People here say that they do love animals but how can they say that when they consume so much meat? It’s very hypocritical. And yes, we are, at some point, hypocrites but your diet shows so much of who you are. It shows how much you care, not only about yourself but also about your environment. 

I think that the real lesson here is not that protein comes from meat nor do calcium can be attained by consuming milk but rather the love and compassion can be shown by being green and by being vegetarian. Wake up!

Reminder: Don’t kill yourself. It get’s better.