May 2010
Aww, thank you.
I honestly think that my blog is very boring. .__.
I been having chill nights.
Yes, I have. I developed B&W’s (:
I’m satisfied with the results.
We’d be happy right now if we never pretended to never liked each other.
I should be crying right now.
I never really talked about you until today. All this txt messages are bring me back to those times when you’d pick me up and we’d chill at your house, when you’d say I love you and how it made my whole week and simple things like when you kiss me on my cheeks, baking, watching movies.
I can’t be brought back to that, I can’t. One thing that you should really know is that you keep weighing me down. Honestly, I’m not fully healed but actually traumatized.
It’s incredible how one person can have a very powerful control of another person’s emotions. That’s what you did to me. My feelings became dependant on you because I was lost. I thought you’d illuminate the way where I assumed I’d be found. I opened my heart once more and let every possible feeling of vulnerability feasible at any moment. I was once again falling but I knew, oh, I was very certain that would be no catching.
You will never know how much I loved you, how much I cared about us, how much time I wanted to spend with you, thinking about you and worrying. You will never know that.
I won’t confront you with all these things I’ve been dying to tell you.
Blame fear.
But hey! I feel proud & accomplished. :3
I Love You, Beth Cooper.
Haha, thanks Ep<3