Biked to the bridge with Spencer and Jesse yesterday.
I have forgotten how to write.
I no longer know how to feel.
Imagine there is a war in Times Square and there is no news on national media. This is whats happening in Turkey! The cops are killing innocent people protesting the government on the streets, the local media is censored. PRAY FOR TURKEY. BE A HUMAN & SUPPORT US. MY FRIENDS ARE DYING!
I hate to say this, but we actually should reblog stuff like this.
Posts say it doesn’t make a difference, but it does.
If we keep reblogging, people who care might donate to charity.
Or it could reach someone important, like a government official who’s on tumblr for some reason, and he could do something about it.
This post might save lives.
Monterey Bay Aquarium this Saturday was fun. Spencer and I got on the guest list and made it there three hours before they closed. It was enough time to go see jellyfishes, otters, sharks, the octopus, seahorses and look at the ocean for a bit. Lovely time with a babe.
What can I say? I’ve got the best hair stylist. // ⚡💋⚡
Lazy Sunday afternoon motorbike ride with Spenz. Beautiful.
I forget that I matter to people and I hurt them by doing this. But do they not know that I worry so much? I can’t even function at times because I paralyze myself with poisonous assumptions in my head. I can’t lose anybody and I’m willing to actually try now.
Ambivalence is loving the beach and hating the sun. I can’t stay in the shade forever.
I have been longing for solitude and my birthday was when I wanted it. My anxiety had won me over and it got what it wanted; escape. But I knew that it was something I needed anyway so I had submitted myself. It’s long overdue. I biked around downtown and watched a film at midnight. Just smelling the fresh air on the ride back home made me want to cry. I put my magnifying glass over little things that had happened that ride and thought to myself of how blessed I am.